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Sign up todayI Feed Her to the Beast and the Beast Is Me
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Learn moreFrom debut author Jamison Shea comes this slow-burn horror novel that lifts a veil on the institutions that profit from exclusion and the toll of giving everything to a world that will never love you back. This program is read by Grammy- and Emmy-award-winning-actor Kristolyn Lloyd.
There will be blood.
Ace of Spades meets House of Hollow in this villain origin story.
Laure Mesny is a perfectionist with an axe to grind. Despite being constantly overlooked in the elite and cutthroat world of the Parisian ballet, she will do anything to prove that a Black girl can take center stage. To level the playing field, Laure ventures deep into the depths of the Catacombs and strikes a deal with a pulsating river of blood.
The primordial power Laure gains promises influence and adoration, everything sheโs dreamed of and worked toward. With retribution on her mind, she surpasses her bitter and privileged peers, leaving broken bodies behind her on her climb to stardom.
But even as undeniable as she is, Laure is not the only monster around. And her vicious desires make her a perfect target for slaughter. As she descends into madness and the mystifying underworld beneath her, she is faced with the ultimate choice: continue to break herself for scraps of validation or succumb to the darkness that wants her exactly as she isโmonstrous heart and all. That is, if the god-killer doesnโt catch her first.
A Macmillan Audio production from Henry Holt & Company.
Jamison Shea was once a flautist, violist, anthropologist, linguist, choreographer, dancer, professional fire alarm puller, digital producer, and account executiveโbut they've always been a writer. Born in Buffalo, NY and now surrounded by darkness and gloom in Finland, when Jamison isn't writing horror, they're drinking milk tea and searching for long-forgotten gods in eerie places. I Feed Her to the Beast and the Beast is Me is their debut novel.
Reviews
"With its monstrous ballerinas, beautiful monsters, and writing that drips with both beauty and gore, I Feed Her to the Beast and the Beast Is Me is a glorious debut. I would follow Jamison Shea down any dark path." โErica Waters, Bram Stoker Award winning author of The River Has Teeth
"Cut-throat competition and eldritch horrors โ of both the human and monstrous kind โ collide headfirst in I Feed Her to the Beast and the Beast is Me. Gloriously haunting and darkly thrilling, Jamison Sheaโs words will leave you breathless." โAiden Thomas, New York Times bestselling author of Cemetery Boys and The Sunbearer Trials.
"A beautifully wrought horror story that has you rooting for the monster in the face of insidious institutions. Sheaโs writing is as graceful as the dancers in their book and will leave readers screaming for more blood." โTrang Thanh Tran, New York Times bestselling author of She is a Haunting
"A hungry novel that smears your teeth with blood and ambition, then asks if youโd be willing to rip them out. Jamison Shea has cemented themself as a force to be reckoned with - and reminds us that when your enemies go low, you can always bury them there." โAndrew Joseph White, New York Times bestselling author of Hell Followed With Us
"A sinister, delicious dive into a truly captivating villain origin story. In lyrical prose and a cutting pace, Shea explores the ways power corrupts and the way racist, elitist systems push us to hunger for it. As Laure descended, I descended with her, and when I turned the final page I was starving for more." โCourtney Gould, award-winning author of The Dead and the Dark
"Brutal and beautiful, this book will drag you through the bloodied depths of fierce ambition and into a raw, untethered world of chaos, where salvation comes from crossing the line between girl and monster." โLyndall Clipstone, author of The World at the Lake's Edge duology and Unholy Terrors