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“While I personally haven't grappled with severe mental illness, Alexis skillfully crafts characters in a way that fosters an emotional connection, even for those who may not fully relate. Ash's journey, replete with flaws and emotional baggage, is profoundly moving, particularly in witnessing Darien's transformative influence on his self-esteem. Their evolving relationship, though encountering rough patches, is a testament to the imperfection inherent in human connection. I appreciated the authenticity of the characters' flaws, balanced with their redeeming qualities, which made rooting for them all the more gratifying. This character-driven narrative prioritizes emotional depth over plot intricacies, resulting in a compelling exploration of mental health themes. Despite its challenging subject matter, the book handles the topic with sensitivity and depth, eschewing tropes to deliver a nuanced portrayal.”
— Alycia • Books on Main
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“Buckle up for your heartstrings to be pulled. Joy can be found in the most unexpected of places, and takes work to hold onto. A beautiful depiction of the ups and downs of bipolar disorder, and the importance of being seen fully for you, BDP and all. Alexis Hall pulls you into the mentally ill mind of Ash as he reckons with glittery, shiny Darian wiggling into his life, pushing and breaking down Ash’s boundaries, and earning a smile along the way. You will find yourself rooting for Ash to allow himself to find solace in and accept the care Darian can provide. Hits hard at points. ”
— Emma • Content
Once the golden boy of the English literary scene, now a clinically depressed writer of pulp crime fiction, Ash Winters has given up on hope, happiness, and—most of all—himself. He lives his life between the cycles of his illness, haunted by the ghosts of other people’s expectations. Then a chance encounter throws him into the path of Essex-born Darian Taylor. By his own admission, Darian isn’t the crispest lettuce in the fridge, but he makes Ash laugh, reminding him of what it’s like to step beyond the boundaries of anxiety. But Ash has been living in his own shadow for so long that he can’t see past the glitter to the light. Can a man who doesn’t trust himself ever trust in happiness? And how can a man who doesn’t believe in happiness ever fight for his own?
Alexis Hall is a pile of threadbare hats and used teacups given a semblance of life by forbidden sorcery. He sometimes writes books. For more information, visit www.quicunquevult.com.
Nicholas Boulton is an AudioFile Golden Voice with three SOVAS Voice Arts Awards, five Audie nominations, and more than twenty Earphones Awards. The narrator of over a hundred titles, he records in a wide variety of genres, including contemporary fiction, biography, poetry, romance, science fiction, thriller, horror, classics, and children’s literature. An accomplished actor, his credits also include film, TV, stage, radio, and video games.